Friday, July 30, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Wednesday, July 28, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Monday, July 26, 2004 you were everything in pursuit of a dream ;
Sunday, July 25, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Saturday, July 17, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Sunday, July 04, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
chattin` with * shuling
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * badminton!
doing * nothing
oh well. im dead beat. anyway, sorry if i sounded harsh in yesterday's entry.. kae. yesterday, we had pe. played netball with my class girls and mr chng. was damn fun. =D after pe was recess. played badminton. haha. damn shiok. then lessons were boring. played badminton again during lunch time at the fifth floor landing with my class guys and 6677. ROCKS! haha. after school, we played again. then i was feeling damn energetic lor! LOL. alright. then today, during recess, played badminton again! haha! STUPID ME DIDNT HOLD DA RACKET PROPERLY AND IT FLEW OUTTA MY HANDS. WHAHAHA. but jiaqi more skill! fly so far away from her. lol. and she rocks lor.. keep making the shuttlecocks fly downstairs as well as stuck at the metal thingy on top. LOL. x= alrighty. played during lunch time also! =D as well as after school. haha. all the way till five plus. now my hand's aching. well, legs too. lol. going to huiling's house tomorrow to do chemistry project! xP GOING TO EAT PRATA ALSO! FINALLY! haha. cultural potpourri day wanted to go eat de.. but yea nors... haha.
hahahaha. LALALLALA. im mad lar. lol. AND SAMUEL PASSED HIS DRIVING TEST ON WEDNESDAY! yes. haha. huiling, peishan and i wanted to call him. went outta class during cheena lessons but stupid sias.. he preparing, cannot pick up call. lol. but nvm lar, i already wished him good luck. well, i guessed loads of people prayed for him. lol. he was damn worried i guess. coz he scored 60+ demerit points thingy at first. then reduced to 2. now 10 nia. not bad larr~
haha. lalalala. hes at church now la. so yea. haha. anyway, abt the badminton thingy! i enjoyed every moment spent with you guys! oh yar, also to yanyi, THANKS GIRL for being there for me. see when want go study again remember to tell me alright. (=
lalalalala. 4/7 rocks. =D
a dream that will never come true
9:14 PM
chattin` with * maurice
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * all the stuff that has happened.
doing * nothing
i think its time for me to face it.
nobody ever told you this, i guess, so im telling you now. what you've done shows how possesive you are. but many of us just dont wanna tell you this. ive done my part as a friend. so please let me finish what ive to say. after which, i will let go. and never shall this friendship be brought up again.
i guess you must be hating me. but i dont understand why. hes a friend afterall, i see no need in avoiding him. you're blaming me for something you told me to do. and i dont know why you get pissed off when the others talk to him, its not as if hes yours.. i guess nobody told you that, so i shall be the first. jealousy reigns within you. but i know its not as though you want that to happen.
be it a thousand days or even a million, he doesnt even care. maybe he did, but da degree of jealousy is scaring him off, i guess. everything im saying here is what i feel. it has nothing got to do with anybody else. hate me for all you like, just dont get the others involved. i believe ive done my part as a friend. oh well, perhaps to you, im not a friend. ive tried my best to maintain this friendship. we've gone through thick and thin. quarelled. patched up. everything. from losing my best friend to losing your phone. i admit its my fault at times. but its not as if you've done nothing wrong. it hurts to see my best friend become yours. but its all part and parcel of life. i've accepted it.
i swear all i said was nothing but the truth. the truth hurts so be it if you cant accept it. ive not exaggerated anything. neither have i added stuff. all i wanted was to relive the pain i was feeling deep within me. i never took this friendship for granted, hopefully, you didnt either. well. i think after reading all these. you must be hating me even more.
anyway. ive never thought of coming between the both of you. and all that ive said is the truth. and i hope you'll believe me for the last time. so im letting go now. and may Lord forgive us for all da mistakes ive done. and may you be happy always. thanks for the fond memories you've given me. goodbye my friend.
a dream that will never come true
8:22 PM
talkin` to:: samuel benedict
doing:: watching tv
thinkin` of:: how this friendship's gonna end. or is it not? i dont know.
sigh. was xiasuay-fied yesterday. =/ shall not elaborate on the details..
HAISSS. WATCHING TV. CHEN HAN WEI ASKING FIONA XIE TO BE GIRLFRIEND. so touching. hais...
talked to yanyi today. thanks girl for being there for me.. went to JE library to study with her. great great companion. was on da verge of crying several times.. but yea.. didnt.
confused ass.
everything that i wanted
we were meant to be
supposed to be, but we lost it
and da memories so close to me, just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending
a dream that will never come true
9:22 PM
chattin` with * cheelup samuelstatus * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * you cultural potpourri
doing * watching tv
whaha. potpourri's over!
was damn fun ytd. loads of people cried, though. but i didnt! haha. lala. took loads of photos with bandmates. xP egoistic us. LOL. buay tahan. we took loads and loads of photos! using both charissa's and rena's dcam.
haha. was wondering where to go after potpourri. then was asked to go with marc, panda, samuel they all to eat prata. but then i didnt lar.. arbo so extra.. and.. dont want people to misunderstand. -.-
yeapp. then went to eat with weiwei, chinkuan, peishan, siewkay, derrick, jeffrey, jiaqi, patrick and weecheng. sherman and jiawei came along too. went to hawker centre behind ginza to eat. =D
after that went home. but before going home, peishan and i met samuel and passed him his belated birthday present. haha.
uh huh. erhh. had gastric. fucking pain lor. i even cried. bibibabibu.
then went home ate gastric medicine and was alright already. lalalala. talked on the phone. yea lor. talked from 2 plus to 5 plus in the morning. until my mum came and kaobei me. lol.. wasnt sleepy but i just slept once i put down the phone. LOL. slept till 3 plus in the afternoon. LOL~~~ I ROCK. haha.
lalaaaa. think that's about it larr. oh ya. steven and bob came back too! haha. took photos with them too. asked somebody to come take picture with me but he didnt want to coz he was afraid that he couldnt go in again once he came out. -.-" took photos with bernadette lim, mr foo and mr pandian! hahahaha. x= BETTY ONG WAS HOT YESTERDAY! lol. RED HOT. xP xP xP kaee larrr. okok. i go watch tv liaoo. buh buaii. xP ILU.
a dream that will never come true
6:49 PM
chattin` with * maurice samuel
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online using cindy's account
thinkin` of * yesterday
doing * nothing
yawnn. im at cindy's house now. going to church later with her. lalalala. anywayy. went to sherrie's hse yesterday for her bbq. lalala. it was fun. so many people. yea. people laughed. people cried. loads of things happened lar..
hmm, was consoling linus together with adam and cindy. yar, he's alright now. haha. hang out with ie zhi, celestine, ronald, charmaine, sheryl and benjamin. guoxing came at a later time. erhhh. yea. weirong and gang were there too. something unhappy happened. get it clear yar. it's not that i dont wanna give him an answer. it's coz i doubt him. kae. =/
anywayyy. kept walking around with adam and the others. yup. took several photos. with cindy, adam, iezhi and celestine. =D yup. ie zhi is still as cute lorrrr. celestine still as pretty. charmaine and ronald are still as sweet together. sheryl and her stead are so sweet together too. adam is still as cool. everybody's still the same, i guess. (= erhh. dont know what to say liao. lol. oh yarr.. had a hard time trying to entertaine everybody, especially iezhi, celestine and samuel. and yea! adam found his primary-six-irc-friend. LOL. who is none other than my primary school mate, celestine. kaeeee. time for cindy to blog. byeeee people.
a dream that will never come true
2:08 PM
chattin` with * huiling weisheng
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * o levels
doing * nothing
lala. havent been updating for quite a white. missed me? lol. anywayyy. life was utterly boring. is still boring me. and will still be boring. bleahh.
yeaa. on 1st july, didnt go for band practice coz was celebrating huiling's birthday in advance. well, i wished her happy birthday at 11.59pm. damn it. i thought i was the first. soo sad. =/
went to the SYF opening ceremony. well, rv band was good. hurr. as expected, tanjong katong band won, again. lol. they are really damn good lor. =/ just too bad their drum major didnt get the drum major award. haha. in fact, it's always bowen band and tk band competing. the other two bands that get into the finals can be considered as extras. no offence, but yea, that's how i feel.
nan hua symphonic band will never be like that, i guess. we're getting from bad to worse. look at the attitude of the band members. we have people like me who have completely lost our faith in the band. and we have people who suck up to their seniors just to get a post in the committee. we have people who think they're oh, so great. and we have teacher-in-charge who doesnt seem to bother about the band. how far can we get like that? -.-"
i can say, firmly, that nh band wasnt the way it is now. when i first came into nh band, the seniors were so great. nh band was so united. in 2oo2, after xiao chun they all left, band was less united, but we still tried our best to interact with the juniors. and luckily, some of them were still rather ok that year. in 2oo3, we were alright, not too bad, but it seemed like the fight for posts in band was rather obvious and takin` its toll on us. oh well, after my batch became the seniors, band seems to be fallin` apart. well, i admit im at fault. but who should we blame for the lost of interest in band practices? whatever yea. whatever.
to hell with people who try to suck up to us, the seniors, just to get a post. to hell with the juniors who have so damn fcuked-up attitude. to hell with the new band room, that is so damn small. to hell with people who think that nh band is insignificant. to hell with people who had caused the band to turn out to be the way it is now. to hell with people like me who lost interest and confidence in band.
bahhh. sometimes i wonder how the teachers who are in charge are able to select people for the committee when they BARELY appear in band. the fate of our band lies in the committee. and these teachers, who are barely HERE, select the committee. well, they said that it is according to votes. well, everyone of us had 3 votes. so why is it that people who were nominated, like christofle, are not in the committee. many of us voted for him, im sure. -.- teachers in charge ought to turn up for every band practice to see how the band is going, instead of listening to just the opinions of the majors.
for the discipline of our band, i dont see any problem. jokes are meant to brighten up every single one of our days. so i dont understand why people who joke are considered as rebellious. talking is something every one of us do every day. argh. whatever.
i think that's all i have to say. may God bless our band. and may the people who are freakin` destroyin` the band wake up. we, the sec4s, will have nothing got to do with the band after july. so HOPEFULLY, the new committee will lead the band PROPERLY and the committee in 2oo6 will be FAIRLY chosen.
a dream that will never come true
9:19 PM
