Tuesday, August 10, 2004 ... im sick of all da insults you guys hurled on me.
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Monday, August 09, 2004 lalas. didnt go to church in da end. coz decided that i'll be rather extra. so yea, turned out that law went alone coz samuel was late? lol. yupp. thenn.. did some physics ten-year-series questions and bathed. prepared to go out.
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Saturday, August 07, 2004 hiakk. slept rather late yesterday. samuel is mad! he played soccer in da midnight with his friends. lol. glow-in-da-dark ball. LOL.
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Friday, August 06, 2004 yesterday night at ten plus, got a call from huiling. and an sms. called her back then she asked me to conference with daihua and thianming. then ok lor, i called daihua's phone. then they were like, "go kbox with us tmr lar." coz sotong huiling told them that she would turn up only if i went. but damn awkward lor, not very close with them and im broke. so daihua say nvm, money they settle. lol. so i said, ok lorrr. from ten plus talk to twelve plus lor.. zz.
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Thursday, August 05, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Wednesday, August 04, 2004 ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Tuesday, August 03, 2004 oh well. today was a boring day. boring lessons. didnt have the mood to play badminton also. today was simply boring. msged samuel a little. msged eugene`ng also. he msged me last night to ask me go watch show.
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Monday, August 02, 2004 well well. stupid, annoying bitch. to say the truth, i never denied the fact that i suck and am a bitch. but look who's bitchin` around here. (= as what i said, if you dont like me, just skrew far far away from my blog. why bother to read what i write when it just puts you off? nobody is infallible. if you dare leave notes, why not just put your name down. you are just another loser who's trying to put me down. but i tell you, im not going to be affected. i have friends who are worthy of my care. if you're a foe, please scram yarh. i dont need you by my side. but thank you for telling me how much i suck. people can change. but i doubt you'llever change. why get so bothered by what i write? and by the way, it's my life, and you've no right to interfere. i've no right to stop you from hating me. but still, this is my blog. if you're out to disiao me, and to tell me how much i suck, i'm telling you, you dont have to do this anymore. coz i know how much i suck since day one and i will try to change myself. but again, you've no right to interfere in my life. anyway, thanks patrick, yingqi and michelle tan for defending me. but it's obvious who's bitchin` around here. i dont wanna get involved in any conflicts but yea, you're just picking on me. what more can i do? nobody is infallible. nobody is perfect. well, get lost if you dislike me, i dont need you to act like a friend or even a foe. my life will be much better w/o you and vice versa, i believe. ___lloveeaattffirsttssightt** in pursuit of a dream ;
Sunday, August 01, 2004 updated:
in pursuit of a dream ;
chattin` with * huiling patrick
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * whatever has happened.
doing * nothing
friends? do they mean to tell others that 'you know how he/she's like, so why did you persist?'? are they there just to tell others that 'let him/her be upset/unhappy for all he/she like.'
bahs. it's all just too funny. should have avoided the matter. but i wrote everythin down. WHY? coz my conscience is so damn fucking clear. bahs. excuses? decide for yourself.
but im telling all of you now, my conscience is clear. but 'BRAVO, i succeeded in making her life miserable, intended or not'. i apologise for my mistakes. but why is it that people who were not supposed to be involved are involved? speaking up for your friend? well. you've done it. you've successfully messed up my life. thanks dudes and dudettes.
thanks to all whom have pointed out my mistakes.
but still, people out there who dont regard me as a friend, please scram.
to christabel, sherrie, 'to christabel' and -.- : i know you guys/girls hate me. but my true intention was never to mess up her life. i know whatever i say will be labelled as excuses. but i still have to explain myself. i'll get out of all your lives. hopefully you guys/girls will get out of mine too.
to cindy: i apologise for messing up your life though i never meant to.
to patrick, huiling, shuling: thanks for listening. but i still have to say, listen to both sides of the story first.
hopefully, this entire thing would be solved. and nobody will come ruin my life again. i'll change, i swear. but will you? will she? will he? will they? will YOU?
and whoever that 'to christabel' person is, please fucking scram yarh. my tagboard aint for you to criticise others. you wanna criticise bel, you go to her blog. dont fucking tag here.
common tests coming. wish all of you out there good luck, be it whether you're a friend or a foe.
a dream that will never come true
8:45 PM
chattin` with * huiling [msn] samuel [sms]
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * yesterday
listening to * mo ri zi lian
met jiaqi, boonheng, chinkuan and jeffrey at jurong east mrt. yeapp. then took train to city hall. met huiling. so many freaking people. walked to suntec. and guess what! i met yingqi, yingjing, yiling and their friends! haha.
went to eat at da food terrace. lol. we were saying that jiaqi wont eat. why? haha.. secret. xP
then went to esplanade. theatres by the bay. waited quite a while.
then was da fireworks. it was spectacular. fuck lor. so many people there then da reception damn lousy. -.- huiling's worst. her hp keep searching for network. samuel that toot, at first say see how wanna come anot. then in da end came with his friend. zz. yeapp. fireworks are NICE, SPECTACULAR, MARVELLOUS, everything nice! haha. then walked around. went to citylink 7-11 to meet shaun, eugene and eugene's girl, jamie. dont know if they are steads anot lar. then yea. waited a long long time for siewkay and peishan. as well as samuel's reply. -.-
then yea. they finally came. jeffrey left. after that went to watch da concert. stood across the road to look at da screen. bah. not very nice lar. only KOne's dance steps not bad. never see 5566. cant be bothered though. only think their songs are nice. their looks? -.- soso lar. different people have different opinions. zz.
after that took pictures with jiaqi they all. then walked back to mrt station. was asked to play pool at cck k-pool with samuel and his friend but then warning sms come liao, so didnt go.
then walked home. da road so dark. then stinko samuel say later mangkali come catch me -.- arbo is say monster come. toot lors. yeayyy. OH YEAHHH. huiling was rather troubled at da later part of the day. poor her. bleahs.
hl: be happy! smileee. time will soon tell you what to do.
sk: boo. =D thanks for ur company!
ps: =D=D=D love yerrr.
jq: u ate! haha. shocked us all! xP
boon: lol. send me da video!
shaun: horrr. ur hp wallpaper makes her look fat. change to another wallpaper larr!
jeff: hurr. yesterday you damn quiet siass..
samuel: stupid bangladesh monster. -growls-
shuling: bleahs. miss uuuuuu. =D -hugsss-
wanyi: WHY U NVR TAG HERE DE?
-.- : SKREW OFF. __
a dream that will never come true
4:06 PM
chattin` with * iezhi huiling
status * [ irc ] online. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * tomorrow
listening to * jay chou - qi li xiang
anywayyy. im going to da esplanade to catch sight of da fireworks tmr with peishan, siewkay, shaun, boon and jeff, i think. lol. FUN. lol. yeaa. its gonna be damn fun. lol. form of celebration for my birthday? lol. yea. then tmr morning going city harvest with law and samuel, i suppose, provided that i can wake up in da morning lar. lol.
uh huh. went down to buy dinner with my sister just now. was freaking xiasuayedddd. -blush- da stupid ljs guy.. was like "chilli or ketchup, SIR" talking to the guy behind me. then i freaking answered "both" before he said "SIR" what da fuck.. then my sis laughed at me. that ljs guy also.. freak lar... so paiseh lors.. =/ HE STUPID LAR. DONT KNOW HOW TO SPEAK FASTER. bleahs..
thenn yea.. now my dog's on my lap. so difficult to type. she keep sitting down then lie down. up down up down. so troublesome. bleahs..
kae larr. now telling huiling some stuff. signing off now. xP byeee.
a dream that will never come true
11:42 PM
chattin` with * huiling
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * today =D
doing * watching tv.
yeapp. this morning was utterly, disgustingly, boringly boring. damn it lors. waste my time watching the cheer comp. all da sec4s were like, sleeping? if not talking among ourselves. then finally the day ended. haha. during the singing session, sec4s damn steady, we were da 1st to stand up. coz it seems that none of the sec1s to sec3s know about the nanhua tradition of standing up when they sing. xP
yeaa. then went to jec with huiling, serena and liping to meet daihua and thianming. went to kbox. k65 haha. my first time at kbox. lol. it was super, ultra, damn, darn boring at first. we were sleeping? haha. then daihua began to sing. man, daihua has a nice voice. lol.
yeapp. then lemme think.. loads of pple came. haha. delon came. jianru and samuel ho came too. meixiong also. btw, kaiyan and friends were at another room. and xiu and her friends in another room too. uh huh. they sang quite a lot of songs. everybody sang except for huiling and me. lol. we sang lar, but never use mic. =D
sang loads of songs. all the old songs. westlife, bsb, she, sammi. loads. even hokkien song. lol. sing until damn high lar. coz thianming they all damn funny lors. lol! sang songs got to do with brotherhood. haha. can see the love delon, thian ming and daihua shared. LOL. x= and they sang dui mian de nü hai kan guo lai. LOL. damn fun! haha.
we exceeded the time by about 1 hr larr. but who cares.. x= then went downstairs to eat. saw yingqi, yingjing, xiaoting, yiling and qinrui in ljs. then saw vivian, jaslyn, lixian they all also. saw samuel kong and his friends too. lol. we ate. then xiuling came and join us. they wanted to go play pool at clementi but xiu, hl and i dont want to. wanted to go wcp to fly kite at first. but then decided not to coz the weather sucks. so went to look for serena, liping and the guys. ehh. liangguang, alan came too. =D
serena and daihua versus each other. daihua damn stress lor. coz serena is GOOD. lol. but n the end, daihua won lar. ehhs. oh yarh, before xiu, hl and i went in, serena brought us clothes. damn gao xiao lor. xiu snatch for liping's sweater to wear over sch u. then i snatched for thianming's big black shirt. left with delon's jersey for huiling. xP but in the end, huiling took out her badge lar. then nvr wear the jersey. lol. yea, after that xiu wasnt feeling well. so we left first. hl went to take 165. i pei xiu go taxi stand wait for cab. after that walk to 184 bus stop. and i met jeffrey lee, my daddy. LOL. shocked me lor. it has been 305173506835096357035 years since i last met him. but he was the one who saw me 1st lar. haha.
then was smsing samuel, peishan and shuling on the bus. was asking ling if she was free. go watch movie. but she wasnt lar. so i went home to sleep. ehhs.
for the conclusion, i thought today will be boring and awkward but luckily not lar.. lol.. quite fun lar. enjoyed myself. =D thanks guys.
a dream that will never come true
8:42 PM
chattin` with * samuel
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * you
doing * watching tv.
haha. i watching xi lin men now. lol. and getting so irritated by the characters in the show. stupid dajie and erjie! only care about money. lol. samuel also watching. then we're like, scolding the two of them? lol.
lala~ im going to warren tmr~~with.. i think, siewkay, peishan, jiaqi, kathy, kengyeow, chinkuan, boonheng and jeffrey. should be lar. lol. not sure yet though..
hmm. played netball today. damn it lor. keep screwing up. fcuk sias. =/ so xiasuay. chng was like, what the heck is wrong with you! coz chng join my team mar. bibibabibu. suay.
yea. and i think im gonna fail my relative velocity test. :(
alright lar. i go watch tv. xP
a dream that will never come true
7:55 PM
chattin` with * samuel huiling jiaqi
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * chem project
doing * nothing
stayed back in school to think about how to present our chem project. thought of a way. hope it'll be interesting. xP
ps damn blur today. deleted all the msgs from her inbox. diao~~
lalas. always tell yourself not to give up, for sunshine always comes after the rain~ =D
havent been playing much badminton for the past two days. siannn.
lalas. studyyyy. haha. im off to study my geo. =D buh buai.
youmeanalottome.cozyoubringoutthebestinme.
a dream that will never come true
10:12 PM
chattin` with * nobody
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * shatec
doing * nothing
yup. had da stupid shatec thing. the eating part was funny. loads of funny stuff happened to my table and jeffrey's table. lol. THAT WAITER CALLED ADRIAN IS CUTE. haha. my class girls were like 'wah. that waiter very shuai leh!' after the entire thingy. and i think he heard us say that. lol.
gave my dessert to weiwei. weiwei finished my dessert and siewkay's lor! we were so damn full yet he could still finish the two pieces of cake! power! lol. then walked to westmall with peishan, huiling and siewkay. (= peishan and huiling bought jay's new cd. then huiling left. siewkay and peishan went to wait for siewkay's mum to come fetch them. so i went to bk to meet eugene. yup. that stupid guy.. smoke smoke smoke.. -.-"
then that kaisheng also around lar. then kaisheng go talk to eugene. then in the end leh, ask for cigaratte from eugene. -.-"""" then he went back to the girl he was with. bibibabibu. he was like 'ni men liang ge shi stead ar?'. make me so paiseh. then i say no lar! siao! one guy one girl together means stead meh? then i saw.... WAS THAT YINGQI OR YINGJING? x= with albany also.. lol.. paiseh sias.. till now cant differentiate da both of you. what a jie.. tell me some ways to differentiate Yingqi from Yingjing leh.. x=
uh huh. first part of today was boring lar.. second part still alright. kae lar.. need to get my chem project done.. and also study for da geography test. lol.
a dream that will never come true
8:27 PM
chattin` with * heji samuel
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] online
thinkin` of * who da note-leaver is
doing * nothing
a dream that will never come true
11:09 PM
chattin` with * nobody
status * [ irc ] offline. [ msn ] busy
thinkin` of * nothing
doing * nothing
below's an extract from kaingee's blog..
A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night. They loved each other a lot..
Girl: "slow down a little.. I'm scared.."
Boy: "No, it's so fun.."
Girl: "please..it's so scary.."
Boy: "Then say that you love me.."
Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug.."
The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's uncomfortable and it's bothering me while i drive."
The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its brakes were broken. There were two people on themotorcycle, of which one died, and the other had survived...
The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know, because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared. Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him,got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and die himself.
Once in awhile, right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale. well.. touching aint it? haha.. feeling rather lost at da moment. weird weird feeling. wrote this ai qing gu shi in chinese. haha. wrote down everything i felt. and what da heck. read it once through and i cried. stupid..went to huiling's house yesterday. did most of the project. loads of funny stuff happened. TORTOISES UNITE! (=yups. then came home, bathed and smsed. then yea. talked on the phone.. until two thirty coz parents were nagging. after that slept.woke up. read novel. watched tv. smsed. did homework. BORING. wanted to go out to study but nobody was free. wanted to go to church but nobody was free too. damn. BORING. end my life.
i dont know who that person -.- is. but yea, its my blog and i've the right to type whatever i want. im typing all that happened. so what is your problem? i typed patrick's name too. does that mean im in love with him? helluva crap. fcukin` screw off if you dont like me. if you're just another jealous freak, for God-knows-what-reason, then scram lar.. i dont think im being offensive coz you were the one who started it. and samuel's my friend. so why cant i talk about him? arghs.
a dream that will never come true
7:48 PM
